:: orientation within ::
resilient. spiritual. dynamic. grounded. creative. vulnerable.
:: orientation outward ::
compassion. justice. liberation. balance. advocacy. curiosity.
:: Pronouns ::
She/Her & They/Them
Every point of light is a sacred opening and a potent ingredient to your strongest expression of self. Transitionary experiences have cracked me open time and time again, bearing a thunder in my heart so loud it became impossible to ignore: "Be vulnerable. Let go. Fail and try again. Always center authenticity." Standing witness to birth many times over since age nine, grieving and losing friends since age thirteen, and having a near death experience at ten-months-old have all shaped how I walk with resilience in this world. By design, powerful experiences such as these are intend to open us up emotionally and serve as rights of passage that take us by storm, rock us to our core, and shake loose the very foundation from which we have come to know and rely on for months, years or sometimes decades. My own evolving theology reveres intentional spirituality as a robust tool that has been capable of grounding me in and moving me through these experiences as they ripple infinitely across my life and shape the way I choose to walk, show up, and serve in this world.
In general, humans need meaningful experiences to authentically expand, grow, and shift into something healthful and new. This is exceedingly true for any person walking up to any threshold. Simultaneously the ask of our modern world is "go-go-go", making it increasingly tricky to find alighment and balance with our longings. Stress, anxiety, trauma, and our individual world views impact the meaning we create. In my own life, even when I had learned how to cope, stress pulled at my nervous system and heart strings, making it challenging for me to show up with compassion and gratitude. My most challenging task among the noise, was to tap into my own inner knowing and discipline so that I could banish fear and channel my own core desires. Fear taught me many things, and in the dance of letting go, when I could engage these openings as opportunities to ground-in, shift perspective, transform wholly, and connect to the greater "what is" of this precious thing we call life, I could then tune-in to the undercurrent of what was actually there. I promise you there is gold in that place, and whatever it is you find residing in your undercurrent will open possibility to facilitate transformative rerooting.
The canvas of my life is an ever evolving painting in process. As with most of us, who we are right now is certainly different from who we were three years ago, and who we will be in another three years. Outside my professional life, you might encounter me singing, running, backpacking, reading, writing, hydrating (yes, always hydrating!), movin' ma body, closing my eyes to see and feel the color of music, watching comedy (giving holy thanks for Hannah Gadsby and Hasan Minaj), lifting my face to the sun for a few warming moments, leaning into the big feels that bring up all the tears, actively engaging to center invisiblized and stigamatized voices, shining bright my wierdo light, and recommitting my relationship with joy and all the possibilities that come with it over and over again, even in the face of great mountains. I am profoundly informed by honoring, healing, and serving through my gender queer identity, androgeny, history of trauma, neurodiversity, and an ever expanding dedication to resilience and spirituality each and every day. Most days I make intentional time to connect with source and do my best to show up in my authetic resonance while also remembering that my independent presence is also one of interdependence. This practice is medicine that has encouraged me to become resilient to stress, lean-in to joy, and honor "imperfection" by shining a light on something new I had no idea was even possible.
What I know for sure: I am my best guide, and you are yours. When we commit to working together, I promise to meet you at the center of your experience. My cup is overflowing with gratitude to be invited on this voyage with you.
Given that commitment is an important aspect of love, we who love know we must sustain ties in life and death. Our mourning, our letting ourselves grieve over the loss of loved ones is an expression of our commitment, a form of communication and communion. Knowing this and possessing the courage to claim our grief as an expression of love's passion does not make the process simple in a culture that would deny us the emotional alchemy of grief.
bell hooks in all about love: new visions